Decision made

 


Those of you who have been reading my waffle for a few years now will know the ups and downs of my weight loss world (mostly ups) but I have come to a momentous decision. I am done with dieting! That is it, never again. Now if that means I stay the same shape and size as I am then so be it. If I have to wear a blindfold when looking in a mirror then so be it. If I ban everyone from taking my photo then so be it. I'm tired and I'm just not doing it anymore. And if you don't like it then that's your problem and I won't apologise. Diets rarely work and certainly don't work for me. They are toxic and I wish I'd never started on my yo-yo journey. 30 years I've been losing weight and then putting it back on, and then some! Whether it's restricting calories or restricting carbs or restricting food in general it's all negative! I don't want to face a plate of biscuits and think I shouldn't eat one. Then thinking I wish I hadn't eaten one. Then thinking well I've cocked that up, I'm a failure, I'm useless, I hate myself, I'm now going to eat 4 more biscuits! Don't misunderstand me I'm not saying we should celebrate obesity but being fit is more important than being thin! And I'm also not  saying that I'm going to stuff my face with cream cakes because I'm not. I just want to eat normally. I want good wholesome nutritious food! Food that will give me all the good bits like energy and vitamins. And I want to enjoy treats without beating myself up. I'm 53! I want to be happy and healthy and if that includes being overweight then I'm overweight. So shoot me! I will not do it anymore. (Disclaimer - if I happen to lose a few pounds by accident with all my walking then that's ok too).

I do all my best thinking when I'm trying to sleep. This week I decided to add a post script to my weekly blog, interviewing family and friends about their unusual or bog standard jobs. This week's contribution is from my middle sister. If you'd like to read it please see below.

Has anyone said to you "the nights are fair drawin' in" yet? Because, trust me, they will soon I can guarantee it lol

You have to let go of your life plan to get the life that's waiting for you.

Job title - cost consultant

What do you basically do - I ensure best value in costs for our clients in relation to advertising (TV and other media world wide) and ensure stewardship compliance.

Best bits - relaxed atmosphere, I can wander around the countryside at will. And I have virtual meetings with people all around the world.

Worst bits - my office is in the middle of nowhere, with only 2 other people.

Surprising element - massive companies are our clients and presume we are working in London rather than in a field in Northumberland. (See photo - not what you think would be the centre of a global advertising marketing consultants)






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