Difficult

 


I made candles this week. It was very exciting and I was thrilled! (It's super easy btw, but I was still delighted with myself.)

So someone left the what's app group this week and left me very sad. My heart tells me that they think my blog is crap (I know they used to enjoy it) and it left me gutted. I had a proper downer and almost messaged some of my regular readers. I wanted to know has my writing gone down hill, is it crap, should I keep going? My sensible head tells me that I can't please all the people all of the time. That my reader might have left the group for lots of reasons! But I'm a thin skinned delicate thing and easily upset. I remember when 2 close friends left the group at the same time (it was like they conferred before hand "I'll leave if you leave"- and this made it worse) and I was devastated! Anyway I had a stern conversation with myself and decided (drum roll please) that this one person doesn't matter in the whole scheme of things. I apologise if my posts have been boring recently but hey, my life is sometimes boring. Even if only my mother, my husband and my BiL are my only readers then I shall congratulate them for sticking with me. So to every single one of you reading this now I thank you for sticking with me, and I apologise if this is boring.

My hubby is away skiing (with my daughter and BiL). I'm home with Libby. Libby likes to get up about 6:30 (this is when hubby gets up for work). This is too early for me! However it's probably just as well because I have to do so much before I go to work. Feed her and the cats. Walk her. Water her. Medicine and treat her! I have to sort the litter tray and and other bits and pieces. I'm really missing my husband! Lol. I can not wait for a lie in. Which actually won't happen for about two weeks yet! 

I decided I was eating too much chocolate. Not good for losing weight! But the more I tried not to eat it, it consumed my thoughts, hence making me eat more of the ruddy (but delicious) stuff. Catch 22. So I'm now relaxed, and given myself permission to eat as much as I desire, in the hope that I'll eat less of it. How completely barmy is that? I tell you - dieting is just crazy! 

It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.

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