Finally

 


I just haven't been able to get into my weight loss plan. It's not so much the food, though it is the food because I love food, but more the why? Why am I trying to lose weight yet again? I've lost weight a thousand times but something doesn't work as I end up back at the start. It doesn't matter how I lost weight, or how much weight I've lost or how long it took me - I (like the majority of dieters) put it back on and I'm sick of it. But, and it's a big but, something has clicked. I've decided that at least when I'm trying to lose weight, even if I fail, it's helping to prevent me putting more on. So, finally, I'm ready. Bring on the healthy eating. And if you know my BiL can you please feed him chocolate. He's got 3 weeks ahead of me and I've no chance of catching up! 

Now I don't want to bore you with my menopause, I apologise if I am, especially the boys, but it's consuming me at the moment. A friend has lent me a book (and given me some magnesium and lavender cream for the soles of my feet - helps with sleep) and another directed me to a podcast and I'm absorbing all the info. I'm shocked that as a lady (don't be rude!) of a certain age, almost 53, and the average age of the menopause is 51 I know so little. To me, before, the menopause was hot flushes, night sweats, periods switching on and off and grumpiness. Well, hindsight is a wonderful thing! I only learnt the word peri-menopause about a year ago (and this can last up to 10 years!!) And brain fog more recently. I've been forgetting my words for years (aye, possibly up to 10 years). How on earth did I not know more? Many women are diagnosed with depression when it's often the peri-menopause (I'm not saying that's me but it could be. I always thought my depression was hormone related.) Periods don't always stop and start they can just vary in their heaviness and length. Leaking wee is also a symptom - who knew!? And why have I never discussed it with my friends? I suddenly realised that at my age my friends are similar in age. I had no idea who had started this part of their life. I do now - I'm asking lol. Maybe it's just me, I'm happy to discuss anything (within reason lol). Is the menopause so private it's not to be mentioned, unless in hushed tones? Maybe, I can only speak for myself. But I'm finding the whole thing fascinating! 

Do you like my picture? One of the residents at my work coloured it to give to me. I think he has a soft spot, last week he summoned me to dance and the Burns afternoon lol.

Always be a little kinder than necessary.

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